I quarreled wif baby again. Coz he dun rmb our 4th mth anniversary. Actually is not a big deal I'mjust disappointed y am I always e one who keep track of the dates. He dun even give a shit I think. He told mi mani SORRY afterwards but I dun accept. Not tat I was being unreasonable or petty! I just feel tat we r already drifting apart and yet he dun even bothers to wish mi a happy 4th mth anniversary. Ytd at 12AM, I already wanna send him tat, but I decided to give it a try if he realli matters bout mi. End up he hv no idea at all. I hinted him and told him that e deadline was today. WTF! He still dun get a heck out of it. He still blames mi for all e tiing I hv done in e past. Like stealing..hurting him. I was a HONGSTER in e 1st place after yang left mi. But after I noe tat baby realli loves mi alot, I changed. TOTALLY. I dun even "flirt" or divert my love to others. I dare swear I'm 100% tiong ximm luh! But from e msg tat he had send mi earlier tis morning, I knew tat he still matters bout my past. I noe tat he aint a GOD. He nids time. But he dunno tat he himself oso hv a past which I mind so much! He n his stead had some past tat is so fucking SINFUL lah! But still, I put it behind mi and move on. I dare swear that fucking incident is so much WORST den mine. I used to say that I wun accept a guy wif no responsibility, or someone who create such a inhuman sin. Den now? How the hell am I going to accept tis shit? He mind bout my past den forget it. Macham he dun hv a past. Haiis. My hartt hurts so much. Just cried in class. T.T But he doesnt noe. He said that he had been giving in to mi I know! But dat's not wadd I realli wished but all I wish is to be close wif baby. Just like last time. Is tis IMPOSSIBLE? I msg him telling him that we both nid some time to chill and to reflect. So we r currently having a COLD WAR


If tis "cold war" dun gets better but worst instead. I will put everything dwn. I dunwan to tire myself animre. Yes. Imma weaking. But so wadd.. Nth matters animre..wadd a memorable anniversary I had..

ANiwae I hurt myself while dancing ytd. Now I got lots of BLUE BLACKS all over mahh legs.. Aiyoo..

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